The Epic Tale of the Many Endeavors of Everyone's Hero; Kandy

it's been a while...

2007-05-01T19:12:00.000-05:00

I am a horrible,
horrible person.

no wonder everything went so wrong.

The grass is always greener...

2006-06-11T14:18:00.000-05:00

Bonjourno. Tis I, the almighty one.

Hii everyone.
Don't you love the new layout and title.
I do definately.
So, i am here to write a blogg, and that is what i shall do.
right after i finish the regulars.

ATM.
time: 3:21 PM
date: June 11/06
mood: mostly just a little pissed off, plus maybe a little sad
wearing: jeans and green shirt from garage
talking to: no one. it's actually all very depressing
should be doing: um. see thats the thing, i have nothing to do at all. i can feel my brain turning into mush.
listening to: FOB cd. and yes, they are the epitome of greatness, and you only say otherwise because you are jealous, that people might be capable of worshiping something OTHER THAN YOU.

Horoscope:
You need to face your fears if you're going to truly overcome them. Remember, fears aren't always big, scary, over-the-top things, either. It could be as mundane as fear of committing to a routine.

Moving right along here.
I was gonna get pictures to match, but you know what the problem with today's youth is. THEY CAN'T USE THEIR OWN IMAGINATIONS. so suck it up babies.

well, earlier, i was going to write a blogg. but then i thought that maybe i should calm down first and think about a way to put i so that i don't have the whole world mad at me. so world, don't get mad at me. thanks.

it's not about if you or aren't, it's not about what you did or said. it's all in the words upsoken. the ones i know you think, and prolly utter under your breath every minute of every day. shut up, shut up, shut UP. when i think back to all the crap you say about them, and the fact that they get meantioned, and i don't (?!) well that just goes to show all the stuff you must say about ME. i hate you so much right now. so freakin' much.

note to self: never do anything that might involve upsetting the mediocre balance that is our life. you say one thing and you're a social outcast for weeks on end. i'm sorry if i have opinions and i don't aimlessly follow you around like the rest of them, excuse me for having a brain. damn zombies.

hypocrite, hypocrite, HYPOCRITE. you give new meaning to the word cliché, and i know you know it. stop trying so damn hard to be different. because everyone who has EYES can tell that you're the same as the rest of them. and those missy, are the facts.

i take it all back. your not the person i thought you were, and that's okay. you're allowed to be a phony, you're just not allowed o turn your back on me and judge me according to your new standards. if you read this an dhave no idea what it's about, well then i guess it's not really about you. but. if you can pretty much relate the blogg to my life, well then it's pretty much about you. and that's not be trying to be mean, it's me trying to tell you the truth. however, some of us are a little to dense to realise it's about them, so just disregard the blogg, move on wth your life.

it's a known fact that the more you try to break free, the harder we'll pull you back. if you've decided you're too i don't know, cool/sophisticated/good to be associated with me, once again, fine in my book. i don't expect you to stay friends with the same people for like a whole week or anything, since that is just so long. but i guess this is justbe reacting because i guess i just thought i was different. that maybe you might have actually been listening to me when i was talking. silly me.

the point of this is, that i really have no point. things are slipping and i know i was the one telling everyone that we could at least pretend we were friends for the last week or whatver. but i just wasn't expecting that everyone would have to actually pretend. i thought we were best friends. but i guess i'm just getting caught up in the moment.

so to sum this up... a couple of years ago, i could count everything in my life that wasn't perfect on my fingers. and i guess it just sucks to wake up one morning and realise, it's not like more things aren't perfect now, i'm just not as naive as i used to be. the sky isn't as blue, and the green isn't as green.

but then again, the grass is always greener on the otherside....

kandy <3

.there's no place like home. no matter what they say.

2006-05-24T18:10:00.000-05:00

Heyy everyone.
i have returned both to the quaint little village we've all come to know and love, and also to blogging. my favourite past-time.. hm. maybe not so much.

After debarking on a voyage to the state of commercialism, aka Flordia, i'm home. ten days nine nights. the vacation from hell. oh god.

First off, i would just like to say, connecting flights are crap, always go direct. i don't care if you save a couple grand, it's annoying and dumb.

Secondly. i wasn't very impressed with Disney. everyone says its the greatest place on earth, and all it was was tons of stands selling 30 dollar t-shirts, to remind you of the blood, sweat and tears shed from standing in line for 3 hours only to be spun around like a fool for thirty seconds. um. i think i'll pass.

Also, beware of goofs hanging around the pool. do not let them buy you pink lemonade and call you pretty. even if they do have hot southern accents and six packs. do your self a favour and just go to bed. because even if the lemonade is good, it's a waste of time.

As a side note. that is just a general fact, it could happen to anyone. especailly when you're the only girl at the hotel over ten and under fourty.

Another thing. note the aroggance of nine year olds, and the stubborness of six year olds. giving in is acceptable, but only when getting your way isn't a nessicity.

Oh yes. and sunblock. you would think it's for losers. but mm. maybe not so much. sunburn is painful.

So all and all. i had a very.. interesting vacation full of buffets and stalkers and sun and sand.

ATM.
time: 7:22 PM
date: May 24/06
mood: exhausted and happy to be home
wearing: new ALICE in wonderland tee and jeans.
talking to: ana.
should be doing: unpacking.
listening to: the mumer of society, the noise of choas. the thrill of being home. =)

Horoscope.
You deserve a reward for all your hard work. Make a list of the things that used to delight you in childhood and pick one or two that look feasible. Then go ahead and indulge, indulge, indulge. It's just what you need.

You should be proud, because for once i did something at the spur of the moment. and even tho i regret it now, at least i did it.

it's me. hurray. it's a blogg. gasp, gasp.

2006-04-24T16:44:00.000-05:00

Heyy. i guess this is long over due. i've decided bloggs are for crap because no matter how much i write no one actully gets what i'm saying. so it is a class A waste of time. Anyways, i've decided that i need to write a couple last times to put this all behind me.

ATM.
time: 5:50 PM
date: April 24/06
mood: to many things to describe.. i think mostly just.. nothing (?)
wearing: gray tang top and new brown shirt, and brown pants.
talking to: no one really
should be doing: uh. checking my math record
listening to: Ohio is for Lovers.. at the moment.

Horoscope: Some personal matters have become quite a tangled web lately, and it's time to start unraveling things before they get more complicated. Face the facts and look for the simplest and quickest solutions.

which is pretty much why I'm here. I'll try to make this as exciting, painless yet clear as possible. here we go.

well .. before i continue, comments are good, just not the judgemental kind. If you don't get it, just leave it. You know, easy come - easy go. if you don't know that then figure it out. it's not rocket science people.

#1.

and i'm sorry if i can't always be who you want me to be. and i'm sorry if i'm not living up to the standards, and i'm sorry if i can't make everything better, or if i don't think that things necessairly should be better. i'm also sorry if i don't have all the answers you need, and i'm sorry i can't always be there, and i'm sorry that i care. and even if it sounds like these are sarcastic, know that they're not. because i am actually sorry, and that's pretty much it. i'm not being the best person i can be lately, and i'm not the best friend. and you know it. something is off, and i can't quite place it. i'll have to go with a loss of faith. and it's not even a loss of faith in myself, it's in.. everyone else. the world doesn't shimmer like it used to. and i guess that's what i mean by saying, "i'm sorry if my eyes don't sparkle anymore". because i really don't know what happened and i can't fix it.

#2.

because giving up isn't really an option i'd like to consider for the moment. i'm gonna hang on to this one, maybe this one will be my lucky star.

#3.

how many people do you know who are more complusive then me? i don't know any. tragic, i know. .. the details are killing me lately, i can't let anything go. everything that bothered me in the past hits ten times harder now. all someone has to do is just bring up one little thing that reminds me and i can't think, and i just don't want to be there anymore.

#4.

and you just don't get it. i could spell it out in letters and you still wouldn't. but i guess it's only fair that we'll be doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over again for the rest of eternity.

#5.

its that one where you live in the land of gum drops and happy, no JOLLY fairy people. the one where nothing can ever go wrong. the one where prince charming comes along and is not only to die for gorgeous, but rich and obvivously charming too. because if we don't have the dream all don't have anything.

#6.
this one needs no image. we all know what it's about. or at least people that are in-tune with my life do. uh well. i really don't want to write about this in a blogg, it's a cop-out to everyone and everything. all i have to say, is that i love my friends but asking me to pretend to think things and be something i'm not- is asking alot. and i guess all you need to know is, i would do it. not because it's the right thing to do; because i'd be lost without you.

#7.
one thing i realise that i need to learn how to do, is when to speak up and when to let things go. you know, easy come - easy go. today i got to be less uptight and i must say, today was fun. i need to decide when it's important to tell people things that are bothering me, and when i'm being a baby and need to suck it up. because not telling could pretty much cause an irrational fear of the truth and people in general, but telling too much just pisses people off.

Well that is all i have to say for today. i hope you kind of at least got one thing i wrote, or at least think i am now vague and mysterious and have edge. heck, even when i read these back i can't remeber what they're about.

Much love,
*Kandy

2006-03-31T18:30:00.000-06:00

My Dearest Readers,
If I even have any,
Happy Early April Fools.

What a great holiday (not). Anyways, I am looking forward to my sleeping-in-late-school-free-minimal-homework-hanging-around-in-my-room weekend. Be excited. I am . And that's not even being sarcastic. Shocking- I know.

ATM.
time: 7:33 PM
date: March 31/06
mood: kinda tired.
wearing: brown tee and fav. jeans.
talking to: no one really
should be doing: english hmwk
listening to: nothing.

Horoscope:
A certain situation is trying your patience, but just when you think you can't take it anymore, you get a second celestial wind. The stars even let you see some humor in what's going on, and that makes all the difference.

Celestial : (adj.) Of or relating to the sky or the heaven.

Moving right along.

I'm mad at you. And I can't really say exactly why that's so hard for me to admit. But I am. I'm mad mad mad mad mad at you. You take me for granted. You think you can run around playing princess, and then when you need someone, that I'll be there. And most of the time I will, but I can't. I can't stand around and listen to you whine and complain time after time and then get written off for people who treat you like crap. It's not worth my time. It's not worth the effort. And I'm mad at you because I don't want to be the understudy in the role of number one. I want to be number one. And yes I know, "why is this important to you". Because it is. Get over yourself, or get over it, or get over me.

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. I don't care. I never have and never will. I'm just not willing to listen to this anymore, I'm really not.

If you want to be mad at me, fine. Be mad. Be really really really mad. But I'm not going to let you use all of your insecurities to push me away, and you're sure as hell not going to give me any of these bullshit excuses. It's not my fault. And like I said, if you think it is, be mad, just don't you dare me mad around me and act like nothing's wrong. I know you know who you are and what you're doing.

And you don't even know it. Mainly just because you won't open your eyes to the possibilities. Well, we can work on that. Maybe.

Thanks for reading, or at least skimming through. It means more to me than you'll ever know. <33

Much Love,

And happy weekend-ing,

*Kandy

A BLOGG. oh my word, je sais, je sais.

2006-03-26T12:42:00.000-06:00

Hey.
It has been a lonng time, I know. But I have managed to get a slight bit of a life, so please excuse my ignorance. Anyways, I guess I'll just fill in the regulars first.

ATM.
time: 1:47 PM
date: March 26/06
mood: semi-bored, semi-content
wearing: pink tee and jeans.
talking to: Jenna
should be doing: looking up stuff for my english speech.
listening to: FOB.

Horoscope: Be a leader -- but an unobtrusive one. You have the ability to truly influence people's hearts and minds, but from behind the scenes. Let others think the good ideas were their own. You can do a lot of good this way.

Song of My Week: Paper Heart - The All American Rejects.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I'm around you.

J'aime bien cette chanson. It is very fun to dance too. =)

____________________________________________

I really don't know what to say.. for once I have nothing in my life to complain about, so there fore bloggs are tres boring. N'est pas? Oui, kandy dearest. =)

Anyways, I have updated my site recently, www.xokandyox.piczo.com. I think it is not at-par with some of the other piczo ones. So I have spent all week end doing that. I have also been working on a movie. =). www.putfile.com/xokandyox The second cut is up and running.

Other than that I have NOTHING to say. Tragic.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

This article can state just how much I care.

2006-03-11T08:49:00.000-06:00

Oh man.
I haven't written in SOO long. Like.. 9 days. Okay, so not that long, but long enough.

Anyways, Today is the offical (yet-not-really-offical) day of spring break. Hurrray. It's only really good because I don't have to go to school. Other than that, I will be a bored boring bum at home. Fuuuun.

Anyways,

Horoscope : Your imagination is an amazing gift. When things aren't quite to your liking, you're able to envision an alternate world to escape to. What's more, you glean inspiration from your mental wanderings to improve your reality.

(p.s- i have like no imagination at all, so i dunno what this is supposed to mean.)

ATM.
time: 9:53 AM
date: March 10/06
mood: kind of worn out.
wearing: PJ's and pink pull over.
talking to: Laura.
should be doing: I'M DIEING TO PLAY SIMS.

Yess, well yesterday Me, Jenna, Robyn, Care, Laura and Ana went BOWLING. It was pretty fun, Carolyn was the bowling champion, and well I just plain stink at bowling, but i'm not as bad as Ana. Aw. Poor Ana. =(

Then we went to Starbucks, which was fun, even tho coffee has a gross aftertaste. But then we decided, well I HAD THE GREAT IDEA to GO TO THE PARK. So we walked all the way to the park. It was tiring. Then we layed in the grass, and such.

Then we walked to Jenna's house and waited for Laura's mom to come and drive us home. It was a tres late night and I was really really tired.

But now it's Saturday, and I am having fun being in my PJ's at 10 o'clock and laying around all day. =)

"And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you.."

" I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel.."

I hate the way no one trusts anyone. We all say we do, but honestly, i can't tell you because I know how you'd re-act. And I know what'd you think and what you would do. And telling you would just take to much effort. And that's the truth. Or at least what I'm choosing to beleive at the moment.

" This is side 1, flip me over. I know I'm not your favourite record. But the songs you grow to like, never stick at first."
Think about that. It's really sad how far I'm willing to go.

Anyways, I have nothing profond and meaningful to say,
Much Love,
*Kandy

(P.s- Cause the answer is.. I don't. )

(p.p.s- If you got that last part you are a genius.)

2006-03-01T18:11:00.000-06:00

Hii everyone.
This is about as exciting bloggs have been lately.
Nothing happens, so what am I supposed to write about?
That is my excuse, and it is a good one. Trust me.

ATM.
time: 7:17 PM
date: March 01/06
mood: blan. plain. boring.
wearing: garage jeans, brown tank and sweater shrug thingy.
talking to: Jenna.
should be doing: what else? hmwk.

Horoscope: If you're feeling overwhelmed, sit back and simply deal with the circumstances in front of you rather than trying to plot any broad plans for the future. Juggle with these changes, and you'll see a positive outcome.

My Fortune Cookie link got taken off. Hmph.

Some song lyrics from our favourite softcore-emo group:

FOB- Calm Before The Storm.
Sat outside my front window
This story’s going somewhere
He’s well hung and I am hanging up
Well theres a song on the radio that says
Let’s get this party started, let’s get this party started

What you do on you own time’s just fine
My imagination’s much worse than I ever wanted to know
And what meant the world implodeded...
inflated then demoted all my oxygen to product gas and suffocated my last chance
You said between your smiles and regrets
Dont say it’s over
Dead and gone

Calm before the storm
Set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight
Reception less than warm
Set it off and the sun burnt out tonight

The next time the phone can wring my neck it gets no answer
And of the time that I’ve spent telling it my roots
I’m shaking in my boots
And still it looks at me like an old friend I’ve betrayed
The darkside of the doormat is the one your shoes have frayed
The sun burnt out tonight.

Here's to hoping that it's a snowday tomorrow.

I dunno lately. I've pretty much become the kind of person I hate, where I'm mad at people and pretty much the world, but rather than actually tell people, I think I'd rather just be a push over. In short, I need help.
It's not like I want to be a push over, but being on the outside of mello-drama looking in, is much nicer.

I really hate how it's always us against them, and as hard as I try, you don't want to give me a chance, and I am really getting tired of trying.

You used to be okay, I mean you really were. You were nice, and compassionate. But what the hell happened to you.

The point is, everything was okay, until you decided it wasn't. And I can't stand the way you take me for granted. Maybe one I won't be there. Then what will you do?

Ever had one of those days when you talk and talk, but it's like no one actually cares what you are saying? Not be all like, aaaah my life sucks and I'm so misunderstood. But on occasion that's the way you make me feeling. Sick and confused. If you can't understand what I am saying, and you don't care, tell me that instead of playing games with my head.

P.S blogg readers : I don't really give a damn if you can't understand who or what I'm talking to or about.

Moving on.

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures.
And overanalyze your words.

Why do I care? I really don't know anymore. Honestly, you are probably worth more dead than alive. But then again, that's just me beating myself up about it.

Anyways everyone, I have nothing much left to say.

Much Love,
*Kandy

P.P.S- Sorry it wasn't one of those happy go lucky comical bloggs, take it or leave it.

P.P.P.S- All it will take me to go right over the edge is one little judgemental comment. Have your own opinions, but don't diss mine, and don't judge me, you have no idea what's it's like to be anyone but yourself.

Thanks for a great 14th everyone.

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!

2006-02-25T07:27:00.000-06:00

Hii everyone.
It is 8:30 on Sat. and I can't sleep any more. I am bubbling with excitement.

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!
TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!

Hurray for me. Today is Jenna's birthday, but she is NOT AS COOL AS ME. & never will be. =) love you.

Moving on.
This blogg 14-0 and I am writing it just before I turn 14. So that is pretty clever of me if you think about it.

Anyways here are the regulars.

-ATM-
time: 8:31 AM
date: Feb. 25/06
mood: HYPER.
wearing: Pj's.
music: nothing yet.
talking to: CAROLYN.
should be doing: well, sleeping. but also playing sims 2 becuase I have been on the same family for 55 days and they are about to die because they just turned into old people. it is tres tres exciting.

Word Of The Day: (well it's actually molar, but that's not fun, but yesterday's was..) desperado
What does it mean? : a bold or reckless criminal
My sentence explaining desperato: Stacey broke the office phone when she was having a day in the life of a desperado.

Horoscope:
Stick with the big picture rather than focusing on the fine brush strokes. The stars want you to think in broad terms and let the details fall by the wayside for now. Think long-term. Think big and future-oriented.

Fortune Cookie: A person's character is his destiny.
Lucky Numbers: 1, 4, 5, 7, 12

Wasn't that good. I love adding my blogging regualrs, makes the bloggs look so plump.

My Hero(es) of The Week: (it's a tie) Stacey and Robyn for decorating mine and Jenna's locker so pretty. LOVE YOU!

& maybe, without even realising it, that's who we've made ourselves into. <33.

Favourite Song of the Moment:

"Teleport: A and B" - The Spill Canvas.

Alright, that's it, I've had enough,
I'm on my way to you
It's nauseating and I'm sick of waiting
For all these pointless calls to go through

But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me

Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything

Constantly you're working through the mileage in my head
Oh, I'm calculating, yes I'm sick of waiting
How many hours until I reach your bed?

But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me

Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything

My faith in you could move these mountains
I am driving through
It's times like these when I wish I could teleport to you'cause then we wouldn't have an issue

We're cleverly, strategically
Challenging our fright and insecurities,
And never seem to want to leave

Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything
Yeah, we would be,
we would be frantically meltingInto one massive point
That could overcome anything.

[ left: Jenna, middle: Stace, right: Robyn]
mann, I find the greatest pictures.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR, KANDY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Much LoVe,
*Kandy.

P.S- Leave me some brithday wishes. <33

Happy (early) Birthday to Me!

2006-02-21T18:30:00.000-06:00

My dearest of dearest blogg readers.
I have decided to write again, so I can get up to 140 bloggs by my birthday (which is in 5 days) so I will be 14. Get it. 14. 140. 14-0. If you didn't get that you are dim. And those are the facts people. Moving on.

Horoscope: Trust that the road is there, even if you can't quite see it through all the fog. Keep placing one foot in front of the other, and before you know it, you'll be at your destination. Things will become clearer before too long.

Fortune Cookie: Our first and last love is self-love.

Lucky Numbers: 4, 5, 7, 14, 15

ATM:
time: 7:39 PM
date: Feb. 21/06
mood: feeling a little under the weather
wearing: what I wore to school
music: Mix Tape - Brand New and All Hail The Heartbreaker - The Spill Canvas
talking to: no one. because everyone left me.
should be doing: french charte de lec.

Word Of The Day: ubiquitous
Means: existing or being everywhere at the same time : constantly encountered : widespread

I get those from MaryemDictionary thing. It's the same one miss devenish used to give us. =)

Some retard sent me this quiz. http://web.tickle.com/tests/luckycharm/

Here are some of the questions.

1.
Lucky Charms cereal. What's your favorite marshmallow shape?

Pink Hearts
Yellow Moons
Orange Stars
Green Clovers
Blue Diamonds
Purple Horseshoes

( and here I was thinking they all tasted THE SAME. plus they forgot red balloons )

2.
Which is worse?

A black cat crossing your path
Breaking a mirror

( this one was hard, if I was robyn i'd pick the cat one, but i picked the mirror, because if i broke a mirror glass would be everywhere, duh. )

3.
Which adjective best describes you?

Perky
Trustworthy
Industrious
Natural
Funny

( where's option F, none of the above. i would have like to pick option G, sarcastic and witty. =)

4.
How superstitious are you?

I cross my fingers, toss salt over my shoulder and walk around every ladder in my path
I knock on wood from time to time
I don't believe any of that nonsense

( i pick the second one, because I suppose I knock on doors and they are wood. )

5.
Would consider living on the 13th floor of a building?

Yes
No

( umm. no. don't mess with fate people. )

6.
What do you do when you see a penny on the ground?

Duh. Find a penny, pick it up...
I only go after the big money—dimes and quarters
Um, I don't pick up other people's litter

( no comment )

7.
When you were little, what did you collect?

Dolls
Stuffed animals
Stickers
Bugs
Coins
Dust (I wasn't very active)

( ha ha ha I picked the last one because it made me smile. )

8.
Where would you build your dream house?

On the grassy hills of Ireland
In a sweeping desert oasis in Africa
On a 100-acre farm in the old South
On the top floor of an LA skyscraper
In the lush forests of northern Europe

( none of those, but I had to pick so i chose europe. )

9.
What's your favorite holiday?

Saint Patrick's Day
Halloween
Easter
Fourth of July

( wth no Christmas? or birthday? )

10.
Do you believe in otherworldly powers?

Yes
No

( as apposed to beleiving in.. thisworldly powers? )

11.
Would you ever go to a fortuneteller?

Not if you paid me
Only if someone paid for me
Sure, I'd try it just for laughs
You mean again? I'm going next week

( fortune tellers are cool, even if they do talk crap. )

12.
What's the best way to make a wish come true?

Wish upon a shooting star
Throw a coin into a wishing well
Blow an eyelash off the tip of your finge
Blow out all your birthday candles in one breath

( where the hell would you find a wishing well nowadays? )

13.
Have you ever won anything?

Yes
No

( how could you never win anything? )

14.
Fortune cookies. What's the best part?

Eating the cookie
Reading the fortune

( i love both )

15.
Today, you'd feel like the luckiest person alive if you:

Met the perfect spouse
Raised the perfect children
Bought the perfect outfit
Got the perfect job

( or option E, my personal favourite, got a life )

And then that was it. And now I have to figure out what they think my lucky charm is. Hmmm.

Oh man. Haaa. Get this.
My Good Luck Charm is :

Good Luck Troll
There's something about you that just brightens up a room. It's only fitting that your personal charm is as fun as your good luck charm, the Good Luck Troll.
These pot-bellied, big-eared, wild-haired, naked little creatures can lighten the mood almost as easily as you do. Whether they are perched on the end of a pencil, gazing down from the bookshelf or riding along on the dashboard, these "so-ugly-they're-cute" trolls bring good fortune to those who truly appreciate their power.
Often mentioned in the same breath as Pet Rocks, Sea Monkeys and the Slinky, Good Luck Trolls aren't just another fad rescued from oblivion. They come from the enchanted forests of Norway, where it was believed glimpsing a real troll would yield years of good luck. These miniature imitations are easy to spot and even easier to laugh at. And that's the point: nothing bad can happen when you're laughing.

:)

<---->

aw man. Can you see the resemblance. Ilu jenna. pic from http://www.piczo.com/wishful-thinker-x?g=8734207&cr=2 <33>

Much Love as always,

*Kandy

LEAVE SOME BIRTHDAY WISHES.

B-B-B-Blogg

2006-02-16T19:21:00.000-06:00

Hii everyone.
I have come to reek havic and chaois throughout.
Here is my story.

I got up this morning at 6:40 am.
I could feel the school ditching capabilities and happiness in the air.
And thanks to the almighty god of snow and frozen rain, it was a snowday.
Très très cool, and a day off school. =)

So, me being up at 6:40 am and being very excited, I couldn't fall back asleep.
So I sat awake reading, then making phone calls around to spread the festive joy.

Then, at nine o'clock, I watched Dawson's Creek, as a loyal and faithful watcher of almost a year.
It was a good epsoide. The one where Joey and Pasey go to a dancing class.
It is funny.
Trust me.

So then at ten thirty, my dearest Robyn came and picked me up. We drove to Stace's and had some fun.
Some of that included playing Whoonu and preparing some gourmet Kraft Dinner. Yum. Then we went home, where I played Sims for about 298374289635734 hours.

Then it was dinner.

After dinner, I made a very executitive desicion to stay home and ditch being a tour guide at the French Open House at my school. I chose this because the Oc was going to be on at 8 o'clock and I might have died if I didn't see it. Tragic, I KNOW.

So I sat around, and read. I finished the book Jenna gave me called, Girl 15; Charming but Insane. It was a tres tres good book. I am very happy now because I actually have the next one, Girl nearly 16 and something some-something. I can't quite remeber. So i'll read that.

Anyways, so at 7:30 I come downstairs and get all my snacks for the OC. Then I go upstairs again to watch. I was sitting there and I waited and waited and waited. BUT IT NEVER CAME ON.

DEATH.
DEATH.
DEATH.
MURDER.

Omg. Now I have been informed that it will not be re-occuring until March the ninth. Like Oh My Word. I might just die.

Anyways,
Much Love,
*Kandy

Horoscope : You can change things, just not in the dramatic, tower-toppling fashion you were hoping. Real change happens from within and from the ground up. It's not as flamboyant, but it's a lot more lasting.

Fortune Cookie : A friend asks for your time, not for your money.
Lucky Numbers: 2, 5, 7, 16, 18
(courtesy of http://www.zealous.org/fortune/fortune.asp?cracked=1)

ATM:
time: 8:35 PM
date: Feb. 16/06
mood: mad at the TV
wearing: PJ's
music: nah-dah.

Magic
By: Shel Silverstein

Sandra's seen a leprechaun,
Eddie touched a troll,
Laurie danced with witches once,
Charlie found some goblins' gold.
Donald heard a mermaid sing,
Susy spied and elf.
But all the magic I have known,
I've had to make myself.

Love
By: Shel SilverStein

Ricky was "L" but he's home with the flu,
Lizzie, our "O" had some homework to do.
Mitchell, "E" prob'ly got lost on the way.
So I'm all of the "LOVE" that could make it today.

P.S- Happy dumb, belated Valentine's Day.

BLOGG 137

2006-02-08T17:21:00.000-06:00

Hello Everyone.

Horoscope:
It's time to make plans -- big plans that are in sync with the fully realized person that you actually are. Throw out any old fears or expectations of what you can and can't do. The universe wants you to succeed.

All I have to say to that is, yah right. If the universe really wanted me to suceed then I wouldn't need to throw out any old fears and expectations, becuase I would come already perfect. Which I'm not, there for the only one that truely wants me to suceed is myself, and even that's a little lacking lately.

Fortune Cookie: Turn a deaf ear to gossip.
Lucky Numbers: Lucky Numbers: 1, 2, 10, 13, 17

ATM.
time: 6:27PM
date: Feb. 08/06
mood: indifferent
wearing: yellow sheer top and jacob jeans
music: Mix Tape - Brand New. & Collide- Howie Day

"It's the way you wave to me, and the way that you smile and the way that you make it all okay. It's the idea of knowing that you don't love me for anything in particular, but everything in general." <33

I really have nothing to say to anyone. Or anything to blab on about really. I should probably just leave, but I'm not really ready to give up yet.

Dawson: "Some situations are too tragic to have a hero...this is one of them."

It's over, done with. And I don't want to be the the bad guy who comes in and rains on the parade and all, but we're not the same that we were two years ago, and we never will be. So stop trying to make everything go back in place, because it won't work.

The lights of stars that were extinguished ages ago still reaches us. So it is with great men who died centuries ago, but still reach us with the radiations of their personalities.
- Kahlil Gibran

Everyone thinks the biggest thing is to be really noticed and popular. But I don't want to be remeber as the girl everyone wanted to be, but the witch that everyone hated. I just don't think it's worth my time or energy.

Be great in act, as you have been in thought.
- William Shakespeare

How do we know that all that they teach us will actually amount to anything at all. The answer.. we don't. But we still do it anyways, figure that one out.

"I know I’m not who you all imagined... as prom king. Seeing as how I’m not who any of you actually voted for but she’s the queen and I love her... so I guess that that makes me king? No I’m just the guy standing next to you... alright I’m the jester, perhaps, if that works?" - Seth, standing in for Zach as prom king to Summer's queen

OC TOMORROW! AAA. =)

Until next time,
Much Love,
*Kandy

La.

2006-02-07T18:37:00.000-06:00

Hii Everyone.
Read on.

Horoscope: It's the seemingly insignificant things in your life that are the real sources of happiness, so learn to appreciate them rather than dismissing them. That's especially true right now, when many small joys abound.

ATM: time: 7: 38PM
date: Feb. 07/06
mood: kinda bored i guess
wearing: pink tee and jeans
music: nothing really, i was listening to fob but the headphone things hurt my ears.

Fortune Cookie: You are the master of every situation.
Lucky Numbers: 1, 4, 9, 14, 15

Yes everyone. The day has come.
Both of my parents just left.
They are going to Niagra and have left me,
big brother, and little sister to fend for ourselves.
Ha.

The saddest part is that they actually made rules.
Rule #1: Clean up after yourself.
#2: Dog needs to be walked three times a day and feed twice.
#3: Dishes are to be done every night after dinner.
#4: No loud music.
#5: Guests are allowed, but must leave before 10 pm.
#6: Be nice to your little sister.
#7: No fighting over the TV.
#8: No fighting over the computer.
#9: No staying up too late.
#10: Do your homework before watching too much TV or playing on the computer.

Blah, Blah, Blah. The just of that was, don't breathe. =)

Man. I amaze myself with my own determination.
I finished reading the English book and I've already done notes for chap. 7.
And i finished my math in class. And so i have no homework.
Well, I have a unit test on Friday in Géo. but honestly. That lady is CRAZY and I really don't feel like studying.

"Mix Tape" - Brand New (?)
I got a twenty-dollar bill
that says no one's ever seen you
without makeup.
You're always made up.
And I'm sick of your tattoos,
and the way you
always criticize the Smiths...
and Morrissey.
And I know that
you're a sucker for
anything acoustic.
But when I say
let's keep in touch,
I really mean I wish
that you'd grow up.
This is the first song
for your mixtape.
It's short just like your temper,
but somewhat golden
like the afternoons
we used to spend
before you got to cool...

AAAAh. man. I love that song. It reminds me of so much. Ha. It makes me smile.

Anyways.

I was thinking about it today, about how I always say I need to go get a life. But honestly, I think I'm happy just blending in right now. Just going with the flow for once and actually excepting that not everything is going to be perfect or special. And I think that's why I snapped when people make stuff up about me. It's not because it's true, because if it was, i would have already told you. But it's just that I don't know if I could handle being watched all the time and being talked about and feeling lik eevery mistake I made that everyone would catch it. And honestly, I really can't decide what to do, because lately I can't decide what I want, or who I want or where I want to be. So I think I'll just stay here, nice and safe in my little transitional blended space that you very much.

Much Love Anyways,
*Kandy

Pinatas? Why are these cards in Spanish guys?!

HA. Good Times, LoL Stace, Jenna and Robyn.

& I'll never give up trying,
'cause you're everything to me.

2006-02-05T19:26:00.000-06:00

Hii Everyone.
Like my new layout?
I do. Well it's alright,
but my old blogg was bugging the hell out of me because it would go to teh bottom of the damn screen.
Annoying.

So anyways,
here are the blogging regulars.

Horoscope : You can't go around saving everyone all the time. Not only is it a drain on you, but also you're not doing them any favors -- truly. They need to learn to stand on their own two feet and save themselves.

My Fortune cookie : To one who waits, a moment seems a year.
(courtesy of http://www.zealous.org/fortune/fortune.asp)

ATM.
time: 8:31 PM
date: Feb. 05/06
mood: umm, can't think too good cause my head kills.
wearing: mickey PJ's.
music: um nothing. like i said my head hurts.

The superbowl is on tonight, and I generally watch, but it's Seatle and Pitsburg and meh. They're not really that cool. I like to watch it when the Patriots play. And the half time show is The Rolling Stones which are (no offence) but soooo old. I wouldn't be surprized if they just keeled over and died right on stage. =) not that they should die, because they're not a bad band.

But since the Super Bowl is on, D.H.W is not. Which makes me so sad. But Grey's Anatomy is, which is like my third favourite show ever, next to Dawson's Creek and the OC.

It's Time to Dance - Panic! At the Disco

Boys will be boys,
Hiding in estrogen, and boys will be boys,
Boys will be boys,
Hiding in estrogen and wearing aubergine dreams.

Dictionary :

estrogen - Any of several steroid hormones produced chiefly by the ovaries and responsible for promoting estrus and the development and maintenance of female secondary sex characteristics.

aubergine - A secret term used to refer to computers in thepresence of computerphobic third parties.

computerphobic - word to describe anxious, distrust, or fear of using computers; a person who dislikes computers

VERDICT.
I like the song. It's very catchy. Another good part is when they go.
"When I say shot gun, you say wedding. Shotgun Wedding. ..."
But. When the ending needs to be looked up in a dictionary and then
the words in the definition needs to be looked up, well.
Something is seriously wrong.

Anyways, I hope you all enjoyed with blogg. I worked pretty hard on it.

Much Love,
*Kandy

Ha. You know recently someone asked my why i bother with images at the end of bloggs.
Well I suppose I like to showcase the ones that have a similar kind of humor/anger/misery that my bloggs do. =)

& we were all in love.. but we all got hurrt.

2006-01-31T17:15:00.000-06:00

Hii everyone,

This is gonna be some random blogging-ness.

Much Love and Enjoy,
*Kandy

My horoscope for today: The roses are in full, riotous bloom -- metaphorically, that is. Are you stopping to breathe in their heady perfume? It's time to sleep late, indulge in lots of late-night conversations and take luxurious bubble baths.

time: 6:20PM
date: Jan. 31/06
mood: in pain.
wearing: green shirt and jeans. which Will got all dirty. grr.
music: F.o.b.. what else?

I should probably doing some math homework but.. w.e.

Read on..

Now i'm downloading some older songs so i can be all pro for when the concert comes. Okay, so i'm obessed, i admit it. =)

SONG OF MY WEEK :
HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS LYRICS
"Ohio Is For Lovers"
Hey there,I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on.
(and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much.
(and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.[x2]
[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
My final breath is gone
So I can fall asleep tonight

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]

_ - - - _

CONTINUED AS OF FEB 04

time: 10:30PM

date: Feb. 04/06

mood: tired/ a little paranoid

wearing: Pj's an dpink pull over

music: a mixture.

I'm babysitting guys. I had this really scary thought.

Next week I'm going to see When A Stranger Called,

and it made me really freaked out, because I was sitting here.

The kids are in bed (&there are too just like in the movie)

and I'm realy scared that someone is going to call,

and be like AAAA. Go check the kids and then they'll be gone.

So now i'm gong to runupstairs and check, because I

don't think my babysitting career could survive having two kids die in my care. brb.

tick tock kandy.

I'm back. No dead children. Thank god.

But i can't help but feeling like i'm being watched.

Hmm.

Anyways, here's some exciting news.

Next Tuesday afternoon my parents are going to Niagra

and I'm not invited, which is

A. very mean

and

B. kinda odd

because they're going to leave me and my brother alone

for three whole days and two whole nights.

I found that really really strange.

But who really knows now a days.

I just plan on partyng it up.

Too bad they're not going away over the weekend.

ALSO on the OC this week was like death.

Actually, it really was, cause Johnny fell offthe cliff and DIED.

But he desevered that for coming and disturbing the peace

in humble ol' OC. =)

I'm being a bored um. aaa. I still have 30 paes of

death reading to do for tomorrow aaa.

KILL US NOW.

please.

Like I was saying I'm gonna go now, because

it helps if I kind of at least act like I'm doing my job.

Much Love,

*Kandy

Quote of The Evening :

sing me something soft

sad and delicate

or loud and out of key

sing me anything

My fortune cookie said :

You are a person of culture.

(wth?)

Number One Thought In My head:

I need to make up my mind as too,

what I want,

because I can't have what i want,

if I can't even decide what that it.

Ha. I watched C&TCF tonight. I love it so much.
Mike TV is my favourite tho.

Girl, 13 (almost 14) Charming, But Insane. Ha. I stole that Title from a book, but it's a good one eh?

2006-01-30T20:20:00.000-06:00

Disclaimer: The following content may or may not be related to real life. This is meant to in no way/ways to be offensive to any person/people in general. Take with light humor please.

I just don't know anymore.
I really just don't.
Human kind worries me so much.
It really does.
People are so god damn STUPID.
It hurts my head.

Anyways, Hii everyone.
I'm glad you're reading again.
Know what would make me EVEN happier?
IF YOU LEFT A FREAKIN COMMENT!
Jeez. Only Jenna and Robyn wrote one last time.
It's cause they are cool.

kinda. =)

Today was an alright day I suppose. It was all good till we had science.
Science is the second cause to all death. Mostly just because it's Orth.
Seriously, I have a very serious not even laughing kind of question for all of you.

Do you think that if I had a class, (and keep in mind, the year is half over now) and if the teacher couldn't even rember my name, (not not even like calling Daniel "dan" cause that is close) should I even have to do the assignments?

Like guys, my name is Kandy. It has five letters. K-A-N-D-Y. It's not that hard, like I know the K is kind of deceiving and all. But does Kandy sound like Maryam to any of you? Like honestly. Kandy .. Maryam. NO RESEMBLANCE. It doesn't even start with the same letter of gods sake.

So, I ask my dearest readers, Why. WHY. Why would my science teacher of TWO years, call me Maryam. And it wasn't like a one time thing. She writes Maryam on papers and then gives them to me. She is crazy, WHO HIRED THIS LADY.

Anyways, that's all I have to complain about today. Now if you read that and laughed at me, well good. But seriously, it WAS funny, BUt now it's just plain old DUMB.

Yah so. Life is boring. Verrrry boring. Pssst. If your still reading, write a comment k? Kay, good.

Greif. HEADACHES. I'm making no sense now, but honestly, TWO WORDS...

Attention Whore.

& you know it's true, because even the blind can see.

Much Love,
*Maryam.

I mean Kandy. ;)

Afternote: Any refference to "Maryam" has nothing to do with Maryam Shahid. Sorry for any confusion. Blame it on Orth.

I haven't written in 17 days, so sue me.

2006-01-29T20:13:00.000-06:00

Hii everyone.
I haven't written in soo long, and yes I am aware. But I kind of a semi-interesting/busy life and I don't really spend as much time online as I usually do. So there's my excuse. Anyways here's my ATM :

time: 9:17PM
date: Jan. 29/06
mood: bored ; as usual
wearing: pink Pjs
music: I'm singing myself some pretty good guns&roses, does that count?

Yah so since today is sunday, then tomorrow monday and monday sucks because we have french, and french is the cause of all death. Not even joking. French is either about : falling asleep or wanting to kill yourself because she drones about grammaire for hours, which ever comes first. But other than that, and the return of Mrs. Evil Lady, everything is normal I guess, not too exciting, yet not too bad.

Yesterday/Friday was fun. Me, Robyn, and Jenna went to LASER QUEST. It was sweet. I sucked at it. But you can't have everything, now can ya? Jenna was SO good, she amazed me. So was Robyn, except she keep shooting me like CRAZY. Then we got a drive back to Jenna's and slept over. It was fun. Then I got picked up from Jenna's and went to Fabricland and bought some purple satin material for my dress. Which I am going to get fit for demain. I am excited about that anyways. I also went to the mall where I went to like all the store but all I found that I actually liked were a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, which I plan on wearing tomorrow. They are pretty sweet. So yah, I put that stuff on my card, it was fun.

Plus then also my dad told me that I pretty much have enough money for a computer. Which like blew my socks off, cause that is awesome. So I might be PC hunting pretty soon. =)

La La La. I am one bored bum. Desperate House Wives is an old one tonight, which made me very mad, but then Grey's Anatomy is gonna be a good one. And tomorrow on Dawson's Creek, Abby is going to die. I know this becuase I am a self-proclaimed fanatic and that is just the truth.

So anyways, I pretty much just wrote for the sake of writing, which is dumb, but I haven't written in SO long. Plus this april is going to be my one year of blogging anniversary and I am determined to get to 200. Good Luck to Me.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

& That's is the truth. You think you are so cool, but your really not. & honestly you just piss everyone off, and that is the truth.

This is Pete. He is the bass player in F.O.B. He is really really hot. Just not as hott as Jenna says, because she has it in her head that she is going to marry him.

Psssst. She's craaaazy.

Oh and that reminds me. Good Luck to:

- Jenna

- Stacey

- Jenn

- Ed

- Laura

- Tshea

- Mike

- Meaghan

- & everyone else who have Cathwra auditions this week. <33

# 131. Cool Number dudes.

2006-01-13T20:37:00.000-06:00

Heyy.
I am b o r e d.
And Jenna warned me I'd be bored if we sat at home, but I was tired and I was enjoying being a computer addict, till it got boring, and now what am I gonna do? Je ne sais pas completement. Peut-être je me suis folle. C'est un vrai possibilité.

Woah that was a very français spirt. Anyways, today was soooo boring. I thought I was going to die. In french I was practically sleeping and in geo and math I couldn't stop yawning. Then I get home and I was like asleep through Dawson's Creek, so of course I had to watch it twice. It was bon. Pasey and Andy are together and Dawson and Joey broke up. That was a triste part, à la max, bien sur.

So school is boring, the weekend is boring, the computer is boring. Life is b o r i n g. Jeez. I need a new hobby. Hmm. Oh I also went layout hunting today, it took me two hours! I got some good stuff tho, here's some of it, but I'm saying the best to use on my site when piczo is back up.

By the way, the fact that I got ZERO comments from any of you last time made me very very very sad. I know people read, because I can check my hit counter thingy, btu no one leaves comments. Tear, tear.

Ha Ha. This picture est très moi. J'aime bien. I love it so much.

I'm pretty sure this is Robyn or Jenna as a doctor. Very professional. Have a bandaid.

&& this is just the way we are, and why I let you call all the shots is beyond me.

The misfortune will follow you until you learn to get over yourself.

Anyways, this one was short, yet very very very bored and boring, comme moi. Get used to it. The future is much like the present and the past only further along.

Much Love,

*Kandy

Quote of The Week: "Wit is just educated insolence." -Aristole

Héro de la semaine: J-j-j-jenna. It's cause you believe me when no one else even knows the half of it.<33.

The Big Thirteen-Oh. [ #130 ]

2006-01-12T15:07:00.000-06:00

Dudes.
How's it goin? I am très bored and I was going to update my website, but I am too bored to do that, so I guess blogging is what I shall do.

time: 4:07PM
date: Jan. 12/06
mood: .. tired
wearing: jeans and new tee shirt
music: unfortunately .. rien.

I'm just gonna talk around the main issues affecting the blogging world today, because I don't think it's my place to say anything, other than that person on Christina's blogg was eithering having a bad day, or just really mad at her. But anyways, I don't think anyone should be saying stuff like, "to the biggest wuss i've ever heard of" because it completely justifies what the person said about christina, because an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind, and trash taking won't get you anywhere. But I do think it was uncalled for, just keep in mind that everyone has the right to an opinion, and if you don't like theirs then
a) don't listen.
b) find out about how to make your MSN space Messenger views only, or how to block certain people completely.
c) delete it and move on.
d) laugh about it because someone was obvivously just releasing pent up anger and regression.

But that is just my opinion on the topic, and if someone doesn't like it, or thinks that i'm defending the person that wrote the mean comment, fine, think whatever you want, just push Alt and F4. It's my job to think whatever I want, and write it here. It's your choice to read.

So moving on completely. I don't think i can actually spell the word completely, and i definately have to get off the computer because stupid Emerson is loading on the hmwk. So ttyl.

Much Love,
*Kandy

P.s- Keep 'em happy. <333

&& this time, I might not be there to catch you,

when you fall.

Blogg - -* one two nine

2006-01-10T16:56:00.001-06:00

Hello there.
Life is back to normal, and yet very good. Not that anything entertaining ever happens, but yet it is good. It's pretty much because at the moment I have nothing to worry about. Like, Emerson is back, and that is not cool and all, but what can I do about it besides sit here and complain? Nothing. and since i've decided complaining makes really boring bloggs, I'll skipp through that part and tell you about my life.

It's pretty much the same as it always has been. Um. I wake up, and then go to school. Then I have seven classes, everyone boring, then I go home. I watch Dawson's Creek and then go on the computer, followed by tons of homework, then i go to bed. Then it all repeats. One exciting life i've got going on here, don't you think?

Anyways, me and jjjenna are presenting our project on friday, which we are going to be so prepared for that it will blow the socks off people. Plus we are pro's on the pancreas.

So now I have some post blogging excerises to go over.

time: 6:06 PM
date: Jan. 10/06
mood: um. relaxed but happy.
wearing: light beige cords and pink sweater
music: "Get Busy Living, Or Get Busy Dieing" - Fall Out Boy.

"I know this hurts, it was meant to."

Quote of the day: "I want to be known for my hits, not just my misses."

Much Love,
*Kandy

I'm Back.

2006-01-08T11:00:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone.
I've decided to add an ATM at the beginning of every blogg. I think it is a cool idea, even if everyone uses them now. So here we go,

time: 12:01 PM
date: Jan. 8/06
mood: I really couldn't tell yah.
wearing: cords, white tang top and blue sweater + blue pearls
music: "I Slept With a Guy In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me" - Fall Out Boy.

So back to blogging.
Um.
Well, firstly you should know that where I am writing this blogg from, is not my usual place. I'm in my bedroom- in the basement at my daddie's. I got a new computer down here. It is pretty cool, but the keyword is odd. I can't type properly.

Anyways, today is the last day of vaca. Sigh, I know. It's only really going to be bad cause Emerson is returning. And I don't even care if that sounded mean, because she is not nice. So there.

Song Changed : "Get Busy Living, Or Get Busy Dieing." - Fall Out Boy

" I know this hurts, it was meant to."

Also, last night I had the oddest dream. I won't go into details, because it was the most bizzare thing ever, but inthe dream, I was confusing people, then someone did something (that would never happen in real life) and then everyone got mad at me. Like everyone. And I didn't even do anything. Then I was like talking to them about it, but they couldn't hear me. And then they were talking to me and I couldn't hear them. So there I was partically mute and deaf and I just started crying. It was so weird.

I also finished the sixth book of Georgia Nickelson. It was so good. Kinda. But the ending was so bad. It didn't even finish. She'd better write more books. Or I'll be mad. Gr. Like anyone cares.

Song Changed again : XO- Fall Out Boy.

" Love never wanted me, but I took it anyways."

Moving right along. I know that I've been all Non-chalant about the science presentations, but if she FORCES me to present tomorrow, I swearI will round up an army to kill her. a) becuase she hurts my eyes with the way she dresses. and b) because all my notes are at school and how am I supposed to practise?

I wonder what's for lunch. I'm hungry. I woke up at like 8 and sat in my bed trying to figure oyut what that weirdo dream was about. All this stuff happened, and it was like I was doing stuff to make excitement, which I have thought about doing alot lately, but like I would actually do it.

Je me suis ennuyeuse. Horrible. Je sais. Okay, no more french. I'll save it for tomorrow, when I should everyone my SUPER COOL ELERONIC DICTIONARY. and my SUPER COOL SHOES. And ALL MY NEW CLOTHES. La La La.

This is going on for too long. I'll finish up.

"Turn off the lights, and turn up teh silence. Because all of our moves make up for the shyness."

"You only hold me up like this, because you don't know who I really am."

"I used to waste my time of dreaming of being alive, now I only waste it dreaming of you."

Much Love,
*Miss Indesicive.
*Kandy

Blogging Events are Current.

2006-01-05T18:14:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone.
After reading the book, Confessions of a Boyfriend Stealer [a blog] ; By: Robynn Clairday. I have decided to explore my options and I'm considering starting a new blogging space. I'm gonna look around and see what there is. So you might not here from me for a while, but I promise to check in once and a while. Also, I'll post the new address if I do change.

Much Love,
*Kandy

P.s- Got a suggestion? Leave a comment. <3

P.p.s- It's a great book, I reccomend it.

Nombre Cent Vingt-Six. {{ #126 }}

2006-01-05T10:49:00.000-06:00

Heyyy.
This is gonna be a random collection of thoughts, and quotes and pictures and shout outs and just stuff. I'll be cool. So read, and leave me a comment. Thanks, Kandy.

- - - - - - - - -

Fall Out Boy : Obession of the Week.

Favourite Song on Album : Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner

Lyrics : "Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day? I'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake. The hand behind the pen relieves a failure every day."

Other Highlights : "Are we growing up or just going down? It's just a matter of time until we're all found out. Take our tears and put them on ice. I swear I'd burn the city down to show you the light." - Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year.

"Just so you know, you'll never know. And some secrets weren't meant to be told. I found the secret to growing older." - I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me.

"I don't blame you for being you. But you can't blame me for hating it." - A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More 'Touch Me'.

- - - - - - - - -

Joey : Hey

Dawson: Hey. As my first act as your date, I thought choclates, diamonds, covertibles... but um, I settled for a foliage.

Joey : Foliage is good.

Dawson : So, should we go?

Joey : Yeah.

Dawson : Okay... I'm really glad we've already bypassed the end of the evening "will she kiss me" drama. Um... so it should be pretty much smooth sailing from here on out...

Joey : Yeah, but now you endure the agony of "well, i've already kiss her so should we just check into a motel and go at it like porn stars" anxiety.

Dawson : I.. I think I can handle that

Joey : Well.. Um... good, cause I know a good motel...

Dawson : Um.. How about we start with something very simple... Something that goes beyond this month's Penthouse Forum.

Joey : And.. Um.. what would that be Dawson?

Dawson: I would really like to hold your hand.

Joey : Okay.

( That was the eposide I saw this morning.

Beginning of Season 2. <33)

* A hopeless romantic to the very end. *

- - - - - - - - -

Speaks for itself. 110 % genuine and 120 % real.

- - - - - - - - -

Much Love,

*Kandy

Honestly, does it NEED a title?

2006-01-04T13:16:00.000-06:00

Heyy Dudes,

How's it going?

Good? Good.

It is the second week of Winter Vaca.

And I must say, with only four days left,

I misssss my friends sooo much.

Not to meantion the fact that I'm dieing of boredom!

There is nothing to do.

n-o-t-h-i-n-g.

And you see, I could go out

and do stuff.

But

I am too lazy.

So instead, I'll sit here and

complain.

It's what I do best anyways.

Anyways.

I just checked my comments.
And at first I thought I'd write a blogg

about how much the mean comments suck.

Yah, but then I realised,

that I

care!

Now, I know everyone is bored sitting at home and all,

But,

leaving mean comments is a sad way to amuse yourself.

La La La.

I have like nothing to say really.

I just thought I'd blogg because I'd like to do that at least twice a week now.

Good Luck To Me.

Much Love,

*Kandy

Quotes : For everything there is a season,And a time for every matter under heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die;A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal;A time to break down, and a time to build up;A time to weep, and a time to laugh;A time to mourn, and a time to dance;A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;A time to seek, and a time to lose;A time to keep, and a time to throw away;A time to tear, and a time to sew;A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;A time to love, and a time to hate,A time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Ha. I laugh if you actually read that. I was just looking for quotes and I reconginzed it because I read it at a funeral once. Odd, I know.

The REAL QUOTES : "The remarkable thing is that we really love our neighbor as ourselves: we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate ourselves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. We are prone to sacrifice others when we are ready to sacrifice ourselves."

- Eric Hoffer

“Blogs are a real force, ... They're not just for geeks anymore.” - Carlos Watson

Ha. Ha. I find the coolest quotes. Hope you enjoyed reading. <33

Dude.

2006-01-02T22:24:00.000-06:00

Hi.

Okay, so I admit it.

I am a bad blogger.

A terrible one.

I haven't blogged since Christmas Eve Day.

That was a whole nine days ago.

Nine days.

Bad, bad me.

But now it's a new year.

So be happy.

Anyways.

Time for me to tell everyone,

how god damn spoilled I am.

Presents this year were insane.

Honestly, I know I didn't get everything,

I asked for, but I got sooo much.

Here's the list.

(p.s- if you think i'm bragging,

well i am.

but if you don't want to hear it,

scroll down.)

The coolest shoes : HEELYS. I am too cool on them.
Even if I did nearly die.

The Sims 2 : I am a complete addict.

Charge Cards & Gift Cards : In the amount of nearly $ 660

7 books : Every single one I asked for. I know I'm a brat... and I love it.

3 CDs : B.E.P, Coldplay, and Fall Out Boy

12 different shirts and one jean jacket

6 new pairs of pants

2 new purses

A Brittney Spears Fantasy Perfume and Lip Gloss Set

A French- English Electronic Dictionary

Cash : $$

New MP3

Law & Order Board Game

CSI Model thingy

5 pairs of earings

Lots of candies and chocolates

& the list will go on.. but this is boring.

Anyways. One thing I didn't get were Dawson's Creek Seasons on DVD. It was tragic. But my greedy little heart got over it pretty fast. So moving onnnn.

My life now adays is veeery boring. I sleep in till noon, get up. Then I watch Dawson's Creek. After that I play Sims for about 3 hours, until I either ..

a) die of hunger
b) die of boredom
c) get kicked off the computer
or
d) just get kicked.

Then I go to various places to shop. Then I buy some stuff. Then I come home. Sit around, eat more junk. And then play Sims until 2 am. It's pathetic. I know.

So.. back to New Years. It was terribly uneventful. I sat at home with my parents and siblings and watched old movies. Then we had a CSI and Law& Order marathon of all the eposides we had saved up from taping. That was good. Then we just watched the big ball drop in NY (on TV) then we had this nasty sparling apple jucie/poser wine stuff - it was soo bad. Then I went to bed. It was ... fun? not.

Anyways, this is the part of the blogg where I state my New Years resloutions.. so here we go..

I guess what I really want is to actually learn from my mistakes of last year and move forward in my life, I've spent too long dwelling on the memories of bad times past.

I also neeed to stop baking fun of people. Well except Jenna, because apperently, no one else finds it funny.. who woulda thought?

.. To get a life. That's a big one. =)

To stopp making all these promises I can't keep.

To make up my freaking mind and actually act on what stuff instead of sitting there being over sensitive, over anylasing freak.

Lose all the judgemental crap.

So this is pretty much my blogg of the New Year. I'm sure there'll be more, and I hope you'll read them. Happy 2006.

Much Love,

*Kandy

Quote of The Week : "Sing to me the song of the stars. Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again. When it feels like my dreams are so far Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again."

Secret of The Blogger : I can't decide who I want, and the saddest part is, I lean to one side, then the next minute, I hate them. This sucks.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!

2005-12-24T15:44:00.000-06:00

Hiiiiiiiiii.
This is going to be my blogg to celebrate CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!

Be Excited. B - E excited.

Happy happy happppppy christmas.

This is the most pointless blogg ever.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE DAY!

Much Love-lyness.
*Your hero, and mine...
KANDY.

<33.>

Collection of Thoughts. Otherwise known as a Blogg.

2005-12-22T18:53:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone.

Read it. Love it. Sign it. <33

Wow. this might be like one of my last bloggs of 2005. How scary is that? Oh well, at least you know I had a great year, and i'm sure there'll be alot of blogging to follow. in 2006. =).

Christmas is three days away.
THREE.
I AM SO EXCITED.
Like overly excited.
Like i might just die.
<333
J'aime le noel.

Baby, all I want for Christmas is you. And it's sad because I don't even know who my "you" is anymore. =)

Anyways, back to my blogg. I guess I don't have many other collected thoughts to share, so I'll jst do my usual random lines. You love me =).

It's not about being happier, it's about trying harder to make an effort to BE happier.

My new years resolution is to know when to give up, and when to accept defeat.

Don't give up completely, because all you really have left are your dreams.

Much Love to all who struggled through the week,
I hope I helped you a little,
or at least nulled the pain.
*Kandy

...

2005-12-19T16:42:00.000-06:00

Hi everyone.

I wrote a really good blogg yesterday and i highlighted it to change the font and i accidently hit shift. and Poof! it was gone. =(.
Tough break, eh?
Story of my life dude.

Anyways, the sum up of the sum today, is it's just one of those days where everything I did in weeks past and that I thought I got away with, has all bunched up, and it's seriously hurting my head.

I swear like every time I let my guard done, someone came up to me and was asked me if I has said *this* to *someone* and the depressing thing was that I honestly couldn't remeber. The other sad thing was, it was like a different thing EVERY time.

Now I'm going crazy. Hi guys. This is me... going CrAzY. =). Smile, it makes it all better. not. bear the pain. grin and bare it. the burden goes so deep. all the smiles. can't really tell which are fake and which are real. and it's killing me. the stress is just enough to kill.

*sigh*.

craaaaap. The whole point of it was that no one was gonna know and i was gonna have fun on my little loner self and i was gonna be like YES. go me. whoot. but now it's like all ruined because they all knew what i was gonna say before i said it. and they already knew how i'm going to react, even though i don't know. and what kind of a life is this?

Gr. I'm also mad. because no matter what i choose, i'll hurt someone. and do either of you care about me? no because it's never really about me is it? it's about who gets the most of me, and who gets the best of me, and who gets the left overs, and who gets my time, and who gets my effort, and who gets the additude, and who gets the lashing, and who gets the nice me, and who gets the bratty me. and yet it's always about me, but it never really is. It's about who gets me. and i hate that it's a war and i hate that you make me pick and i hate that you get mad at me no matter what i pick, because no matter what, someone gets hurt and who am i to justife who should be happier then the other, on christmas day to say the least. and i just hate myself when i have to pick, but i hate you more for making me have to pick.

You burn a whole IN me, but you're just to concerned about there things, like how i'll look when i'm missing my heart.

My head hurts because there's too much inside and i need to vent. But my worst fear is it's too late. I'm breaking down faster than I can put myself back together.

And that's all i have to say, but i'm sure i'll be back.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

A Blogg At Last

2005-12-15T20:44:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone.

Sorry, I haven't written in like a zillion weeks!

AAAA. So much as has happened to me

since I last wrote.

It's crazy.

I am so busy with school, it's like my life.

Thank god it's almost vaca.

I've also been so busy with the concert

but know it's over and I can breathe.

I didn't do too bad tonight

If I do say so myself

a) because I didn't fall off the stage and die

b) because I looked super spify

And that's the truth.

Secondly, I am so tired.

I can't think straight.

And now I think I like someone else.

So bad.

God.

Aaaaa.

But I think if I tell anyone

And we actually amount to anything

She'll hate me forever

Because she says she doesn't like him

But it's all an act.

Craaaap.

That's me complaining.

Also.

This is my great shoutout

to the friends that made

my after school

experience

so cool

because I needed

some fun.

Finally,

Even though I don't think

I say it enough.

I love you guys so much for reading.

It means the world to me

To know that when I write these.

People want to read.

And they actually care.

And on the bonus side:

Pas de acwardness around "le freak" therefore

I think I'm cured.

And offically ready to move on.

Much Love,

*Klllllkandy (psst. that was for Jennna)

Hero Of The Week : Three (of many) best friends in the world;

and my fellow dancers.

*Stace,Laura,Molly* Love you forver.

Thought of The Week : "He Loves Me. He Loves me not."

Basic Point of The Night: I'm a chicken.

La-Deee-Daaa.

2005-12-07T20:19:00.000-06:00

Hello Everyone,
Bonjour Tout le monde,

I have some very exciting things to inform you about
just because I haven't written in like ages and ages.
And now Robyn has nagged me to death,
so now I have to write.
La-Deee-Daaa.

Important things that happened since
the last time I wrote
(which was so long ago
I can't even remeber when it was.) :

1. I got some projects and have about
six million tests in the upcoming weeks.

2. 18 days till Christmas. Wooot. WOOooot.

3. It is so super cold out
that when carolyn et moi marchent
to school our ears nearly fall off.
It's deadly.

4. Umm.
I can't really think of anything for
number four but that doesn't
matter because four is a crappy number.

5. This is about how exciting my life is now a days.

6. On D.c (not that anyone cares, but i do so shut up)
Pasey and Joey were finally gonna be together
an dall happy,
but like WOAH Eddie came back
and now Pasey gonna be depressed
and joey's all like
La-Dee-Daa.

7. And see that number 7...
it's about as exciting as this blogg will get.
But you'd better read because
they're will be a secret question
at the end and you have to answer cause
I said so,
and that's just life
dude.

Deal with it.

Things I plan to do in the near future
only because
it's too difficult to do in the present :

1. Become a super pro franglais speaker.
And make random short terms for stuff so
I can blogg in too languages,
because that is empensly cool.

2. Go shopping for all my Christmas presents.
Uhhh I have to buy so maaany.

3. Finish my peotry book,
and my science project with Jemmmmna.
We're doing the pancréas.
Yumm.

4. Not fail french. That's a tricky one,
especially since we have a test like everyother day
about stupid stuff like the 10 zillion ways
to say "leave" in french.

5. Get a life.

6. Stop writing stupid bloggs with numbers in them.

7. Did I say get a life already?

Yah so that's it.
Mainly cause I never really was a goal setting person.
Well, actuallly I lied. I like to set goals,
I just never accomplish them.
Happy me, I know.

So that's really all I have to say,
Aside from the fact that Nicole won A.N.T.M which is cool
because she was so much prettier than Nik..
and p.s- robyn is on drugs because she disagrees.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

The skill testing question (to be answered in comment form) :
If you add up all the numbers meantioned in this blogg,
how many do u get?

* Just answer the question retards... Love you. *

Keyword : SECRETLY.

If you can guess who I'll worship you forever,

Just ask me on your own time, not in a comment.

Not that I'm telling...

& it's great because we do. .x.o.

This is the end; There is no more.

This is a blogg about me being mad at YOU. (yes you!)

2005-12-02T08:17:00.000-06:00

My Dearest Blogg Readers,

I am very upset with you guys. I haven't been getting any comments lately, so either...

a) You can't take three minutes out of your "exciting" lives to read my bloggs.

or

b) You're too goddamn lazy to leave a comment!

And the upseting part is : I can't decide what's worse!

Don't worry I have much more to complain about.

1. No one EVER leaves me comments on my website either, which I know is crap because my hit counter goes up and i never get any comments.

2. The dance WAS crap. Maybe it was a little bit of fun, but like the music sucked and everyone was either WAY too hyper or too sulky. Like be depressed if you want but when you complain about it over and over you make everyone else depressed too. So shut up.

3. I am basically just in a bad mood because I can't watch D.C until 10 because I can't watch it on Live TV cause then I can't fast forward commercials! And watching commercials is something I can't enjoy.

So that's really All I have to complain about.

Go to my site.

www.xokandyox.piczo.com

and leave a bloody comment.

I love you.

If anyones actually reading this...

Much Love,
*Kandy

.it's a blogg, dumbo.

2005-11-30T19:22:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone,
I'm writing twice in one day.
I rock.
Vivez-le moi.
I don't even think that's right, but it sounds super cool.
Okay so everyone guess what?
I found this cool site and it's www.googlism.com .
And you can go there and type in a thing and then it tells you, who, what, where or when it was.
I think it's pretty nifty.
So I typed in my name.
Here's some of the best ones.

Googlism for: kandy
kandy is simply dandy.
kandy is op vele manieren nog steeds de ( I don't know why but like half of mine weren't in english..)
kandy is a well rested kandy after sleeping for most of the day yesterday.
kandy is the best air force vs.
kandy is an okay girl notes for today.
kandy is also the heartland of buddhism in the country and the sight of monks clad in flowing maroon robes walking down the streets confirms this.
kandy is sri lanka's second biggest city.
kandy is le kandyan 4 star deluxe with online booking.
kandy is still the true heart of sri lanka.
kandy is dotted with small buddhist and hindu shrines and temples.
kandy is as sweet as candy but it starts with a "k" cause its different.
kandy is a very fine cd player.
kandy is blessed with the tooth temple.

Yes, so those are the facts dude. To review, I am a sweet, buhuddist worshiped city in a place in Asia. Just remeber that when I'm famous. Wink, Wink.

So Much Love to All,
*Kandy.

(P.s- only four classes left this week. I'm stoked. Aren't you?)

(P.p.s- my googlism proves that I am way to cool for school.)

... guess what it is?

2005-11-30T06:30:00.000-06:00

Hello Everyone,

Well, it's offically the day before G.G's first dance. And yes, it's comes a little late this year, but that's not the point. The point is, can't you just feel the depression setting in? Anyways, I'm sure it'll be a very interesting dance with lots of girls bawling and people yelling at eachother, and plenty of cat fights and who knows, a punch or two might be thrown. So my current theory of these dances, is that they're only really fun for like the six people that get what they want. As for the other 256... well good luck with that.

Moving onnn.

I haven't blogged in a while, but know I have. So be thankful.

Aaaaaaah. Only one and a half days left this week. We can do it! Or.. die trying? LoL i have no idea.

Sooo yah,
I really have nothing left to say,
so
Much Loeve,
*Kandy

Hero Of The Week (even if it is only wendesday): Cara; for saving me from failing on writing on my marks sheet. LoL.

Quote of the Week: "Don't say you don't love him, If you can't let him go."

Dream for me.
Feel.
Conceal.
Wish.
Accomplish.
Dream for you.
Amaze.
Stargaze.
Aspire.
Desire.
Dream for us.
And what we know we'll never be.

- Me

A blogg.

2005-11-27T14:07:00.000-06:00

Be Mine.
& I'll be yours,
If you need me to be.
& I'll be good,
If that's what you want to see.

& I'll be me,
If you let me show.
& I'll be afraid,
If you don't let me grow.

& I'll be happy,
If you allow me to shine,
& I'll be with you,
If you truly want to be mine.

"Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do." - Yellow, Coldplay.

_____________________________

My Dearest Readers,
I can't write much because I'm terribly busy. I've just had a great idea for my poetry book for English class. I'm gonna put a quote with every poem. Hurray for my ideas. Oh and I also did my cover of my book. It says "Pictures fade, but memories are forever." and I have the circle pic of some of my best friends. And it has a green background. I lovve it. I'm gonna dedicate it to my bestest friends.

So yess. I just had to write a blogg and thank everyone for writing such great comments. I lovee you.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

A blogg, of the blogging sorts...

2005-11-26T07:49:00.000-06:00

My Dearest, of the Dearest, of the Best, Blogg Readers,

I am writing a blogg. Woot- Woot- Woooooot! Goo me. I rock.
Anyways, I can't write much because

I'm going to see Harry Potter,

with three of my bestfriends... shall be fun. For sure.

______________________________

So.. moving on.
I have this friend. And they kind of used to be what I would consider...

wild and crazy and such.

But I think this year, they've pulled their act together

and so now she's smart, and funny, and ontask, and accomplished.

And firstly, I am so damn proud of her.

But... I just can't understand how she can do this to herself.

And how she can't even stop to think

about how she's hurting everyone else.

And I'm not even mad at her anymore,

now i'm just so disapointed

that she can throw everything away and not care.

I don't understand how she can be so fake.

And my dearest friend, if you're reading this,

and you want to explain to me,

okay.

I'll sit here & wait for you.

_________________________________

AA. So that's all I can think of to say right now.

But I'll write later about H.P ... I promise. And I like think I keep my promises.

Much Love,

*Kandy

_________________________________

Hero of The Week:

Carolyn - for always being there and always saving the day. Love you. <333

_________________________________

So…
Scared… of the future
Fearful.
Distressed.
Anxious.
Startled.
Nervous.
Uncertain.
Changed.
Affected.
Touched.
Excited.
Emotional.
Upset.
Afraid.

Scared… of the unknown.

[ and i know you're scared, but maybe i am too. ]

_______________________________________

Quote of the Week :

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'

'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.

'I don't much care where --' said Alice.

'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.

'--so long as I get somewhere,' Alice added as an explanation.

~ Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

Untitled.

2005-11-23T19:32:00.000-06:00

My Dearest Blogg Readers,

How art thou? Goodth. Well good. Anyways, I have some key points to point out. So lisez-bien below.

1. Lord! School is so boring. I swear today in french I could have killed myself because I was so god damn bored. Cheach just rambles on and on about direct and indirect objects and where to put "s" and where not to put them. And I was like... "the hell?". Anyways, in short french is retarded cause they have the stupidest rules of gammar. And yes.

2. Today in music it was so rude cause Jenna and I were having a conversation by writing on a piece of paper while Ms. Devenish rambled on about flutes and what not. Then, we get in trouble, even though I was totally on task, and was actually playing the RIGHT NOTES. *cough*sathya-and-meaghan*cough* No offense dudes, but like seriously, PULL IT TOGETHER.

3. And then I had to take my saxamaphone home so I couldn't go and get a hot smoothee from Tim Hortons which I am like DYING to have. It was depressing. Terribly depressing. I could have cried.. except my tears would have frozen to my face.

4. I need to write some poems so that when we have to write our poetry books, I won't have so much work to do. So hmm. Leave some great suggestions on what I could write about.

5. Today, he smiled at me. Ha. So Ha. I think I melted into my seat. I'm pathetic aren't I? LoL.

6. Ils se sont dit : "Je t'aime". (oooooh. I'm pro.) p.s- i got that from a french sheet, and I know it's pathetic when you melt at activities in french class.

7. I can't believe that they can do that. They put so much effort into building something there and then they just give it all up. I just can't understand. Maybe I'm missing something, or maybe i just can't comprehend it. But when I found out today, I just felt so.. sad. Because I feel so bad for him, and it's not even like pity. It's more like confusion because he gave it up, and now it's over. But when you think about it, it was her fault.

8. "To brave the undertow, we had learned to hold hands." Let me in. Please. All I need is one chance and if I blow it then you can brush me off, but please, just one chance.

So all and all,
I just have to say,
That I miss you already,
and I wish you could stay.

I need you.
I want you.
I like you.
I miss you.
I need/want/like/miss you to miss/like/want/need me.

Much Love,
*Kandy

(p.s- No O.C this week. Tear-Tear. Je sais)

Some Stuff to Blogg About.

2005-11-21T17:07:00.000-06:00

Dearest Readers, (all like six of you..)

"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?"
Well it's not so much as a mistake, but more of a... hmm dilemia? Sure a dileima. "I love him. I love him not. I love him. I love him not. Crap, out of petals." It's one of those things.

"But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles."
=) He he Heeeeeeeee.

"Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud"
Shhhhh. Don't tell anyone.

"I reach to the sky as the moon looks on."
I honestly can't imaginemy life five minutes from now. So how the hell am I supposed to decided what I'll want for the next four years of my life? God, grown ups are retarded.

"So I don't get hurt.
Because of you."
&& she can't decide to jump, because she doesn't even know if she can fly.

"They tell me you're blue skies fade to grey. They tell me your passions gone away." "You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost."
What if under the surface, we have nothing and we are nothing. What if we risk it all just to be let down. In the great words of D.C... "..maybe we need to be so utterly mean to eachother that we never do end up together, because we need that dream of how good we could be, and with out that dream, all we have is failure."

"I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget"
Society spends so long learning things that will cause them such pain in the long run, that they'll force themselves to forget it. Well maybe, it's just not worth it.

"So descretely.
We won't look back"
No regrets. I'm either going to do this, or i'm not. Whole-heartly.

"I swam across.
I jumped across for you."
&& it's a little sad what I'm willing to do.

& it kills me because it feels like everyone but me knows.

&-&-& it hurts because you won't tell me. And maybe you don't trust me. and maybe i care. But maybe I don't.

Anyways, everyone. I know that was like a deadly good bloggg. Now I must go cause like... I have homework and stuff to do. I have a life you know. Wel... actuallly... I don't- but that's not even the point.

Much Love,
*Kandy

And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again.

It's Friday.. woot- woot!

2005-11-18T15:11:00.000-06:00

Heyy Dudes!

It's friday and therefore all is well. Even though I have nothing to do.. snore, snore, je sais. La La La. Anyways, today was a pretty boring day overall. La La La. I went to some class, and sat around, then i was all bored, then i went home. La La La. I have no homework tho... that's a plus. I'm writing a blogg, so that's a plus plus. I almost finished the eighth book of Gossip Girl, so that's 3 pluses. So in conclusion.. lots of pluses.

"And right now all I want,
Is for you to hold me tight.
And never let go."

"Maybe he believes me, maybe not.
Maybe the wind on the prairie,
The wind on the sea, maybe,
Somebody, somewhere, maybe can tell.

I will lay my head on his shoulder
And when he asks me I will say yes,
Maybe." By: Carl Sandburg

La La La.

Much Love,
*Kandy

'till next time.

It's snowing.

2005-11-17T17:46:00.000-06:00

Heyy Everyone.
It's snowwing.
It's actually pretty cool.

Aaaaaa. I have to go soon cause we won't want be to fail my science test tomorrow. Toootles.

Much Love,
*Kandy

Star-Gazing
Best friends.
Laying in the grass.
Looking up at twinkling stars,
In the black velvet sky.
Emotional wrecks.
We can't even imagine,
Our lives apart.

(it's supposed to be a imagery poem... lemme know what u think...)

'Tis I. The Mighty O-Great One.

2005-11-15T19:29:00.000-06:00

My Dearest Blogg Readers,

Hi everyone. My name is Kandy. I live in a shoe box. I go to a school. I speak français. Well I try to at least. I'm full of maturosity, but I love to have fun and be a kid. Spinning in circles is like my favourite past time. I have some friends. Most of them are pretty cool.

I have some bestfriends. They're my life. At The Moment They are : [robynn.laura.mol.care.stace.car.jenna.lina.lisha] <---> { i'll love you forever, i'll like u for always. as long as i'm living, my best friends you'll be. } I also have a site. www.xokandyox.piczo.com

It's taken me an hour to write this. I've started it over and over like a zillion times. I guess the only thing I wanted to say was... i want u to want me. But i didn't want it to sound that corny.

So I guess that's it. I also have another MSN blogging space. Add me if you want to read it. kandy33375@hotmail.com and xo.Kandy@hotmail.com . I have 106 bloggs in total.

Forever Yours,
For the Taking.
For the Waiting.
For the Laughing.
For you, in all your glory.

*Kandy

&& i need you.