My Dearest Readers,
If I even have any,
Happy Early April Fools.

What a great holiday (not). Anyways, I am looking forward to my sleeping-in-late-school-free-minimal-homework-hanging-around-in-my-room weekend. Be excited. I am . And that's not even being sarcastic. Shocking- I know.

ATM.
time: 7:33 PM
date: March 31/06
mood: kinda tired.
wearing: brown tee and fav. jeans.
talking to: no one really
should be doing: english hmwk
listening to: nothing.

Horoscope:
A certain situation is trying your patience, but just when you think you can't take it anymore, you get a second celestial wind. The stars even let you see some humor in what's going on, and that makes all the difference.

Celestial : (adj.) Of or relating to the sky or the heaven.

Moving right along.

I'm mad at you. And I can't really say exactly why that's so hard for me to admit. But I am. I'm mad mad mad mad mad at you. You take me for granted. You think you can run around playing princess, and then when you need someone, that I'll be there. And most of the time I will, but I can't. I can't stand around and listen to you whine and complain time after time and then get written off for people who treat you like crap. It's not worth my time. It's not worth the effort. And I'm mad at you because I don't want to be the understudy in the role of number one. I want to be number one. And yes I know, "why is this important to you". Because it is. Get over yourself, or get over it, or get over me.

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. I don't care. I never have and never will. I'm just not willing to listen to this anymore, I'm really not.

If you want to be mad at me, fine. Be mad. Be really really really mad. But I'm not going to let you use all of your insecurities to push me away, and you're sure as hell not going to give me any of these bullshit excuses. It's not my fault. And like I said, if you think it is, be mad, just don't you dare me mad around me and act like nothing's wrong. I know you know who you are and what you're doing.

And you don't even know it. Mainly just because you won't open your eyes to the possibilities. Well, we can work on that. Maybe.

Thanks for reading, or at least skimming through. It means more to me than you'll ever know. <33

Much Love,

And happy weekend-ing,

*Kandy

A BLOGG. oh my word, je sais, je sais.

Hey.
It has been a lonng time, I know. But I have managed to get a slight bit of a life, so please excuse my ignorance. Anyways, I guess I'll just fill in the regulars first.

ATM.
time: 1:47 PM
date: March 26/06
mood: semi-bored, semi-content
wearing: pink tee and jeans.
talking to: Jenna
should be doing: looking up stuff for my english speech.
listening to: FOB.

Horoscope: Be a leader -- but an unobtrusive one. You have the ability to truly influence people's hearts and minds, but from behind the scenes. Let others think the good ideas were their own. You can do a lot of good this way.

Song of My Week: Paper Heart - The All American Rejects.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I'm around you.

J'aime bien cette chanson. It is very fun to dance too. =)

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I really don't know what to say.. for once I have nothing in my life to complain about, so there fore bloggs are tres boring. N'est pas? Oui, kandy dearest. =)

Anyways, I have updated my site recently, www.xokandyox.piczo.com. I think it is not at-par with some of the other piczo ones. So I have spent all week end doing that. I have also been working on a movie. =). www.putfile.com/xokandyox The second cut is up and running.

Other than that I have NOTHING to say. Tragic.

Much Love,
*Kandy.

This article can state just how much I care.

Oh man.
I haven't written in SOO long. Like.. 9 days. Okay, so not that long, but long enough.

Anyways, Today is the offical (yet-not-really-offical) day of spring break. Hurrray. It's only really good because I don't have to go to school. Other than that, I will be a bored boring bum at home. Fuuuun.

Anyways,

Horoscope : Your imagination is an amazing gift. When things aren't quite to your liking, you're able to envision an alternate world to escape to. What's more, you glean inspiration from your mental wanderings to improve your reality.

(p.s- i have like no imagination at all, so i dunno what this is supposed to mean.)


ATM.
time: 9:53 AM
date: March 10/06
mood: kind of worn out.
wearing: PJ's and pink pull over.
talking to: Laura.
should be doing: I'M DIEING TO PLAY SIMS.

Yess, well yesterday Me, Jenna, Robyn, Care, Laura and Ana went BOWLING. It was pretty fun, Carolyn was the bowling champion, and well I just plain stink at bowling, but i'm not as bad as Ana. Aw. Poor Ana. =(

Then we went to Starbucks, which was fun, even tho coffee has a gross aftertaste. But then we decided, well I HAD THE GREAT IDEA to GO TO THE PARK. So we walked all the way to the park. It was tiring. Then we layed in the grass, and such.

Then we walked to Jenna's house and waited for Laura's mom to come and drive us home. It was a tres late night and I was really really tired.

But now it's Saturday, and I am having fun being in my PJ's at 10 o'clock and laying around all day. =)

"And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you.."

" I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel.."

I hate the way no one trusts anyone. We all say we do, but honestly, i can't tell you because I know how you'd re-act. And I know what'd you think and what you would do. And telling you would just take to much effort. And that's the truth. Or at least what I'm choosing to beleive at the moment.

" This is side 1, flip me over. I know I'm not your favourite record. But the songs you grow to like, never stick at first."
Think about that. It's really sad how far I'm willing to go.

Anyways, I have nothing profond and meaningful to say,
Much Love,
*Kandy

(P.s- Cause the answer is.. I don't. )

(p.p.s- If you got that last part you are a genius.)

Hii everyone.
This is about as exciting bloggs have been lately.
Nothing happens, so what am I supposed to write about?
That is my excuse, and it is a good one. Trust me.

ATM.
time: 7:17 PM
date: March 01/06
mood: blan. plain. boring.
wearing: garage jeans, brown tank and sweater shrug thingy.
talking to: Jenna.
should be doing: what else? hmwk.

Horoscope: If you're feeling overwhelmed, sit back and simply deal with the circumstances in front of you rather than trying to plot any broad plans for the future. Juggle with these changes, and you'll see a positive outcome.

My Fortune Cookie link got taken off. Hmph.

Some song lyrics from our favourite softcore-emo group:

FOB- Calm Before The Storm.
Sat outside my front window
This story’s going somewhere
He’s well hung and I am hanging up
Well theres a song on the radio that says
Let’s get this party started, let’s get this party started

What you do on you own time’s just fine
My imagination’s much worse than I ever wanted to know
And what meant the world implodeded...
inflated then demoted all my oxygen to product gas and suffocated my last chance
You said between your smiles and regrets
Dont say it’s over
Dead and gone

Calm before the storm
Set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight
Reception less than warm
Set it off and the sun burnt out tonight

The next time the phone can wring my neck it gets no answer
And of the time that I’ve spent telling it my roots
I’m shaking in my boots
And still it looks at me like an old friend I’ve betrayed
The darkside of the doormat is the one your shoes have frayed
The sun burnt out tonight.

Here's to hoping that it's a snowday tomorrow.


I dunno lately. I've pretty much become the kind of person I hate, where I'm mad at people and pretty much the world, but rather than actually tell people, I think I'd rather just be a push over. In short, I need help.
It's not like I want to be a push over, but being on the outside of mello-drama looking in, is much nicer.


I really hate how it's always us against them, and as hard as I try, you don't want to give me a chance, and I am really getting tired of trying.

You used to be okay, I mean you really were. You were nice, and compassionate. But what the hell happened to you.

The point is, everything was okay, until you decided it wasn't. And I can't stand the way you take me for granted. Maybe one I won't be there. Then what will you do?


Ever had one of those days when you talk and talk, but it's like no one actually cares what you are saying? Not be all like, aaaah my life sucks and I'm so misunderstood. But on occasion that's the way you make me feeling. Sick and confused. If you can't understand what I am saying, and you don't care, tell me that instead of playing games with my head.


P.S blogg readers : I don't really give a damn if you can't understand who or what I'm talking to or about.

Moving on.


So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures.
And overanalyze your words.

Why do I care? I really don't know anymore. Honestly, you are probably worth more dead than alive. But then again, that's just me beating myself up about it.


Anyways everyone, I have nothing much left to say.

Much Love,
*Kandy

P.P.S- Sorry it wasn't one of those happy go lucky comical bloggs, take it or leave it.

P.P.P.S- All it will take me to go right over the edge is one little judgemental comment. Have your own opinions, but don't diss mine, and don't judge me, you have no idea what's it's like to be anyone but yourself.

Thanks for a great 14th everyone.