The grass is always greener...

Bonjourno. Tis I, the almighty one.


Hii everyone.
Don't you love the new layout and title.
I do definately.
So, i am here to write a blogg, and that is what i shall do.
right after i finish the regulars.

ATM.
time: 3:21 PM
date: June 11/06
mood: mostly just a little pissed off, plus maybe a little sad
wearing: jeans and green shirt from garage
talking to: no one. it's actually all very depressing
should be doing: um. see thats the thing, i have nothing to do at all. i can feel my brain turning into mush.
listening to: FOB cd. and yes, they are the epitome of greatness, and you only say otherwise because you are jealous, that people might be capable of worshiping something OTHER THAN YOU.


Horoscope:
You need to face your fears if you're going to truly overcome them. Remember, fears aren't always big, scary, over-the-top things, either. It could be as mundane as fear of committing to a routine.

Moving right along here.
I was gonna get pictures to match, but you know what the problem with today's youth is. THEY CAN'T USE THEIR OWN IMAGINATIONS. so suck it up babies.



well, earlier, i was going to write a blogg. but then i thought that maybe i should calm down first and think about a way to put i so that i don't have the whole world mad at me. so world, don't get mad at me. thanks.

it's not about if you or aren't, it's not about what you did or said. it's all in the words upsoken. the ones i know you think, and prolly utter under your breath every minute of every day. shut up, shut up, shut UP. when i think back to all the crap you say about them, and the fact that they get meantioned, and i don't (?!) well that just goes to show all the stuff you must say about ME. i hate you so much right now. so freakin' much.

note to self: never do anything that might involve upsetting the mediocre balance that is our life. you say one thing and you're a social outcast for weeks on end. i'm sorry if i have opinions and i don't aimlessly follow you around like the rest of them, excuse me for having a brain. damn zombies.

hypocrite, hypocrite, HYPOCRITE. you give new meaning to the word cliché, and i know you know it. stop trying so damn hard to be different. because everyone who has EYES can tell that you're the same as the rest of them. and those missy, are the facts.

i take it all back. your not the person i thought you were, and that's okay. you're allowed to be a phony, you're just not allowed o turn your back on me and judge me according to your new standards. if you read this an dhave no idea what it's about, well then i guess it's not really about you. but. if you can pretty much relate the blogg to my life, well then it's pretty much about you. and that's not be trying to be mean, it's me trying to tell you the truth. however, some of us are a little to dense to realise it's about them, so just disregard the blogg, move on wth your life.

it's a known fact that the more you try to break free, the harder we'll pull you back. if you've decided you're too i don't know, cool/sophisticated/good to be associated with me, once again, fine in my book. i don't expect you to stay friends with the same people for like a whole week or anything, since that is just so long. but i guess this is justbe reacting because i guess i just thought i was different. that maybe you might have actually been listening to me when i was talking. silly me.

the point of this is, that i really have no point. things are slipping and i know i was the one telling everyone that we could at least pretend we were friends for the last week or whatver. but i just wasn't expecting that everyone would have to actually pretend. i thought we were best friends. but i guess i'm just getting caught up in the moment.

so to sum this up... a couple of years ago, i could count everything in my life that wasn't perfect on my fingers. and i guess it just sucks to wake up one morning and realise, it's not like more things aren't perfect now, i'm just not as naive as i used to be. the sky isn't as blue, and the green isn't as green.

but then again, the grass is always greener on the otherside....

kandy <3