it's been a while...
I am a horrible,
horrible person.
no wonder everything went so wrong.
It's Kandy's life. Be excited everyone! I go on many great adventures (not) and here you can read all about them. So get ready for the coolest blogging spot. =)
Bonjourno. Tis I, the almighty one.
Hii everyone.
Don't you love the new layout and title.
I do definately.
So, i am here to write a blogg, and that is what i shall do.
right after i finish the regulars.
ATM.
time: 3:21 PM
date: June 11/06
mood: mostly just a little pissed off, plus maybe a little sad
wearing: jeans and green shirt from garage
talking to: no one. it's actually all very depressing
should be doing: um. see thats the thing, i have nothing to do at all. i can feel my brain turning into mush.
listening to: FOB cd. and yes, they are the epitome of greatness, and you only say otherwise because you are jealous, that people might be capable of worshiping something OTHER THAN YOU.
Horoscope:
You need to face your fears if you're going to truly overcome them. Remember, fears aren't always big, scary, over-the-top things, either. It could be as mundane as fear of committing to a routine.
Moving right along here.
I was gonna get pictures to match, but you know what the problem with today's youth is. THEY CAN'T USE THEIR OWN IMAGINATIONS. so suck it up babies.
well, earlier, i was going to write a blogg. but then i thought that maybe i should calm down first and think about a way to put i so that i don't have the whole world mad at me. so world, don't get mad at me. thanks.
it's not about if you or aren't, it's not about what you did or said. it's all in the words upsoken. the ones i know you think, and prolly utter under your breath every minute of every day. shut up, shut up, shut UP. when i think back to all the crap you say about them, and the fact that they get meantioned, and i don't (?!) well that just goes to show all the stuff you must say about ME. i hate you so much right now. so freakin' much.
note to self: never do anything that might involve upsetting the mediocre balance that is our life. you say one thing and you're a social outcast for weeks on end. i'm sorry if i have opinions and i don't aimlessly follow you around like the rest of them, excuse me for having a brain. damn zombies.
hypocrite, hypocrite, HYPOCRITE. you give new meaning to the word cliché, and i know you know it. stop trying so damn hard to be different. because everyone who has EYES can tell that you're the same as the rest of them. and those missy, are the facts.
i take it all back. your not the person i thought you were, and that's okay. you're allowed to be a phony, you're just not allowed o turn your back on me and judge me according to your new standards. if you read this an dhave no idea what it's about, well then i guess it's not really about you. but. if you can pretty much relate the blogg to my life, well then it's pretty much about you. and that's not be trying to be mean, it's me trying to tell you the truth. however, some of us are a little to dense to realise it's about them, so just disregard the blogg, move on wth your life.
it's a known fact that the more you try to break free, the harder we'll pull you back. if you've decided you're too i don't know, cool/sophisticated/good to be associated with me, once again, fine in my book. i don't expect you to stay friends with the same people for like a whole week or anything, since that is just so long. but i guess this is justbe reacting because i guess i just thought i was different. that maybe you might have actually been listening to me when i was talking. silly me.
the point of this is, that i really have no point. things are slipping and i know i was the one telling everyone that we could at least pretend we were friends for the last week or whatver. but i just wasn't expecting that everyone would have to actually pretend. i thought we were best friends. but i guess i'm just getting caught up in the moment.
so to sum this up... a couple of years ago, i could count everything in my life that wasn't perfect on my fingers. and i guess it just sucks to wake up one morning and realise, it's not like more things aren't perfect now, i'm just not as naive as i used to be. the sky isn't as blue, and the green isn't as green.
but then again, the grass is always greener on the otherside....
kandy <3

Heyy. i guess this is long over due. i've decided bloggs are for crap because no matter how much i write no one actully gets what i'm saying. so it is a class A waste of time. Anyways, i've decided that i need to write a couple last times to put this all behind me.
and i'm sorry if i can't always be who you want me to be. and i'm sorry if i'm not living up to the standards, and i'm sorry if i can't make everything better, or if i don't think that things necessairly should be better. i'm also sorry if i don't have all the answers you need, and i'm sorry i can't always be there, and i'm sorry that i care. and even if it sounds like these are sarcastic, know that they're not. because i am actually sorry, and that's pretty much it. i'm not being the best person i can be lately, and i'm not the best friend. and you know it. something is off, and i can't quite place it. i'll have to go with a loss of faith. and it's not even a loss of faith in myself, it's in.. everyone else. the world doesn't shimmer like it used to. and i guess that's what i mean by saying, "i'm sorry if my eyes don't sparkle anymore". because i really don't know what happened and i can't fix it.
#2.




My Dearest Readers,
I'm mad at you. And I can't really say exactly why that's so hard for me to admit. But I am. I'm mad mad mad mad mad at you. You take me for granted. You think you can run around playing princess, and then when you need someone, that I'll be there. And most of the time I will, but I can't. I can't stand around and listen to you whine and complain time after time and then get written off for people who treat you like crap. It's not worth my time. It's not worth the effort. And I'm mad at you because I don't want to be the understudy in the role of number one. I want to be number one. And yes I know, "why is this important to you". Because it is. Get over yourself, or get over it, or get over me.
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. I don't care. I never have and never will. I'm just not willing to listen to this anymore, I'm really not.
If you want to be mad at me, fine. Be mad. Be really really really mad. But I'm not going to let you use all of your insecurities to push me away, and you're sure as hell not going to give me any of these bullshit excuses. It's not my fault. And like I said, if you think it is, be mad, just don't you dare me mad around me and act like nothing's wrong. I know you know who you are and what you're doing.
And you don't even know it. Mainly just because you won't open your eyes to the possibilities. Well, we can work on that. Maybe.
Thanks for reading, or at least skimming through. It means more to me than you'll ever know. <33
Much Love,
And happy weekend-ing,
*Kandy

Oh man.
Hii everyone.
Thanks for a great 14th everyone.
Hii everyone.
& maybe, without even realising it, that's who we've made ourselves into. <33.
Favourite Song of the Moment:
"Teleport: A and B" - The Spill Canvas.
Alright, that's it, I've had enough,
I'm on my way to you
It's nauseating and I'm sick of waiting
For all these pointless calls to go through
But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me
Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything
Constantly you're working through the mileage in my head
Oh, I'm calculating, yes I'm sick of waiting
How many hours until I reach your bed?
But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me
Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything
My faith in you could move these mountains
I am driving through
It's times like these when I wish I could teleport to you'cause then we wouldn't have an issue
We're cleverly, strategically
Challenging our fright and insecurities,
And never seem to want to leave
Hypothetically if you were point A
And theoretically if I was point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything
Yeah, we would be,
we would be frantically meltingInto one massive point
That could overcome anything.
[ left: Jenna, middle: Stace, right: Robyn]
mann, I find the greatest pictures.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR, KANDY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
Much LoVe,
*Kandy.
P.S- Leave me some brithday wishes. <33
My dearest of dearest blogg readers.
aw man. Can you see the resemblance. Ilu jenna. pic from http://www.piczo.com/wishful-thinker-x?g=8734207&cr=2 <33>
Much Love as always,
*Kandy
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